Deafening Silence

The rhythmic thrum of the air conditioner working to keep the heat at bay permeates my room, but does nothing to lessen the roaring crescendo of silence raging in my heart. I have tried, and am still trying my utmost to move her, receiving at best ambiguous responses. I know, I'm not superman. I don't even have a slight inkling of his superhuman powers. I'm just a puny mortal, who, having been buffeted by gale winds am trying my utmost given the battered and bruised state I am in.

Yes I know. Don't expect too much from myself. But then, if you knew that there would be the possibility of your loved one leaving you, would you do any less? Would you sit back helplessly? Or forge onwards against the odds. Although I know it's hard, I will still strive on, hoping against hope that the effort I muster would be enough, even if the result is puny as befits a puny mortal like me.

I should be excited. After all, I am about to embark on a journey beyond my wildest imaginations; a ride up to Thailand. It's 888km one way, and I'm praying for journey mercies and a smooth ride up. And yet, I wonder if I'm in the right state of mind for such an ardous journey. Being alone on the darkened highway, my mind would have free reign to wander, and an idle mind is the devil's workshop. And coupled with the current weather conditions, this could very well be my last blog post. But then again, the journey could prove to be a welcome distraction from the troubles at hand.

I am glad for one person who was there for me when she didn't need to. I also thank God for his grace in providing me with a bossom buddy who gave me everything I need to cheer up. Cluny Park's a nice place, especially at sunset.



I'll return with pictures.

Riding hard, fast, safely AND taking a few corners.