Self Doubt

Am I really that fucked up?
Since the general consensus is that I'm 'not very good'...
Do I have to start re-evaluating?
Maybe the problem lies with me after all.
After all, if everyone thinks I'm the problem, then chances are the fault lies within me.

But noone ever told me what I did wrong.
I don't even know which are the unacceptable things I've done.
Have I even perpetuated any of such acts?
I dunno....nobody ever said so.
And so would it be fair to judge me as fucked up even if I was really fucked up, when nobody bothered telling me what fucked up thing it was that I'd done that made everyone think I was fucked up to give me a chance to see it and correct it?
And so, not having guided and corrected me, would it be right again to judge me as fucked up?

And so, are they still the fucked up ones, or am I the fucked up one?
Are they biased, or am I just cooking up excuses for my own failure?

Nothing seems clear anymore...

Riding hard, fast, safely AND taking a few corners.